Ok scrap the part where I said I'll post pics. They're just too damned embarassing. I srsly need to get a hang of myself and stop eating while I'm depressed. Gargh. I'm going through old pictures and thinking "WTF?!? I didn't have eyebags". My eyebags are like a permanent accessory. And here I am at 3:30am blogging about. Why? Because the person I rant to is offline. Damnit. DAMNIT. I've been sleeping past 4am everyday. I really need to vent, but he so doesn't need this. He's been too nice already. I've been ignoring basically everyone (excluding housemates). I finally went on MSN yesterday 'cause I felt guilty that some people were looking for me. I don't even pick up my mum's calls x.x Not on purpose really.

I gta change. I really have to do something about this. Either wait or move on. Simple as that. I HAVE TO. Just... ARGH. I'm not gonna let these people turn me into some freak. I'm not. Nope nope. And yes, I'm aware I sound crazy but gimme a break :3

I think I gta quit my gaming. It's unhealthy... I'm just using it as a distraction. Time to face reality and stop playing. It's ruining my life and studies. And I'm becoming too dependant on someone. I probably would be dead somewhere rotting if he wasnt there to talk to when I needed it.

As of today... Things are gonna be different. I've decided :) I just kinda forgot who I was between all that sh*t. Not worth my time, my breath or my tears. Yes 2008 is by far the worst year of my life. I've been down before but it never hit this low. You know what? They're not worth ruining myself. I shall move on, I promised two people that I would. And I will ^-^

Shit happens.

Labels: PMS, RO