Everytime I start feeling happy, something reminds me that I shouldn't be this happy. I mean issit right to live a life like this? Am I asking too much if I want to be happy and forget about the big issues? I know they're can't forget about it, but am I supposed to be depressed and serious all the time? I seriously feel like I'm getting more boring, serious and depressed each day. And then someone comes and reminds me that I shouldn't feel so sad over it all the time. It's not my fault this issue exists. I feel happy for a few days and then someone else comes and brings up the subject. Not on purpose I'm sure, but if only she knew how unhappy I was. I love her so so much yet I wish that sometimes she wouldn't share these things to me. As evil as that sounds, 'cause honestly, I can't take it. It depresses me to no end. It's my uni life for goodness sake. I should be out doing something illegal or shopping or whatever. Being a teenager. Why am I even worrying about such things? WHY WHY WHY am I constantly being reminded of my current condition. I think it's about time I stop thinking about these problems and just live. Everytime I want to, I can't, 'cause I feel like they're unhappy... and I just can't be happy knowing that.

I wish something really good would happen. Now would be the right time. I've been waiting for it all year... so please please please happen soon.

*EDIT*
Tsk, talked a friend of mine... He came back from being AFK at the right time. He reminded me that I'm not the only one constantly made to feel this way by "certain". Ahahahaha, 2 minutes of chat with him and I'm already laughing like a goon. This guy NEVER EVER FAILS to crack me up. I always look like an idiot when he's online XD GARGGHHH. Love love love him <3 Silliest + sexiest man ever. I wish he ain't so far ;-;